I MISSED...

After finishing semester, I was too tired to restoring back the peaceful breathing that I have lost. Time was so pressure that I had to push myself to go through to fulfill what I had to. Today, I give myself time when I realized what I am loosing. I started to learn how to be  generous with myself by giving time just to be with myself, to get in touch with my feelings and to reflect all on the past school year. I fearfully accept that I have missed many things that I loved to do before.

I had no time just to walk slowly to see the things around while I was going to school.

I lost my sense of humor when my assignments put me drown into the deep sea of time pressure.

I spent so much time in front of the computer to finish many things rather talking with others face to face.

I was so busy that was not able to love myself dearly.

I missed the nights that I was alone with the moon and poured out all my brokenness and fragility.

I would love to sit down with my friends for a chatting about all kinds of issues in this world and our past memories.
I had no desire to write what I had in mind

I lost my tears though many times I wanted to cry when I was in pain and hurt, but then I tried to forget things to make a move.

My heart seems numb and cold.

I missed many things...

I became a good runner to achieve the external things rather than being a reflective person. My life became more complicated and problematic when the meaning of life was taken for granted.

I missed...